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Dear Future Husband,
I smiled and immediately thought of you when I read this from a book I’m reading by Mandy Hale.. “He was delightfully weird in the best way.” I don’t know why, but I have a feeling that I will think of you this way. Is it weird that I hope you’re weird? Ha! Ha! Let’s be weird together. I want to be able to turn my music up way too loud, sing at the top of my lungs and dance around our house like a crazy person. I want to fall on the floor laughing from your silly impersonations. I’ll show you all of the silly voices I can make and kiss your lips while you smile at me. I want to go on adventures with you. We can be spontaneous and decide to leave at 5am and drive somewhere we have always wanted to go. I want to see the world with you, experience new things through your eyes. Your voice, your view on life will be important to me. I want to see the light in your eyes and the sound of joy in the tone of your voice. I want to love you, all of you.
Isn’t life funny? There are so many twists and turns in our lives and we can make all of the plans we want to, but it’s the wrong turns, the mishaps, the heartbreaks, the disappointments, that get us to where we need to be. At times, I am entirely way too stubborn and sometimes find myself being forced to make decisions at a moments notice because God moves me in certain directions that I never saw coming. I may not understand why out of my siblings, I am the only one who has moved around so much. Maybe I had to leave home to realize why it was so important and why I don’t belong there anymore. Then again, the idea of home can change over time. What I’ve come to realize is that there is good in every place I’ve gone and lessons that I needed to learn. I had pain that needed to be healed and people that God put in my path that I needed to help and those I needed to gain wisdom from. My favorite patient would always tell me how weird I am and what a joy I was to be around. I’m sure you and me will have that in common.
I love you.
You know what’s odd? The fact that the older I get, the more willing I am to do things on my own. It’s as if doing things on my own is no longer scary. That if someone doesn’t want to try something new and exciting with me, I will do it on my own. I don’t ever want to lose that. Let’s promise to take chances and try new things. I am far too predictable and need to let loose every now and then. Life in its mundane predictability can suck the fun out every day, but make me laugh and I’m yours forever. I will never stop learning about you or stop wanting to. I know you are not perfect nor do I want you to be. You won’t be a fairy tale or some silly fantasy, you will be so much more — you will be my reality.
My heart is currently healing, but I promise that when it does the next person I give it to will be you. Now that I know I am still capable of love after feeling as if my heart would never feel such a way, I giggle at the thought of falling in love with you. All of the years I’ve spent waiting, working, trusting, helping, yearning, praying, loving and laughing, without you will all be worth it. I am confident that where I am at this very moment is just the start to something wonderful. It may sound ridiculous to make such a statement, but if I know anything to be true is that God never fails. I may feel a tad lost, extremely broken and a little fearful, but it doesn’t make all of these things true. I’m not lost, because I am found in Christ. I may feel broken, but God is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. I may be fearful because there is so much unknown, but God hasn’t given me the spirit of fear but of power, love and a sound mind. It will all work out, it always does. Life is weird and I can’t wait to be weird together. I know that there is a you because there is a me. I know that you will be worth waiting for, fighting for, and loving. Anything worth having will require work and I will whole heartedly commit to you and our life together. Until then, have fun, baby. Live your life and laugh. Make new friends and try new things. Pray for me and I will pray for you. Always.”
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