I Love You, Goodbye

Did He Give Up On Me

Shared by perhapsmelisa.

The threatening gaps become more visible, whispering “yield…” This time, I can feel the distance slowly growing—that distance I feared so much before. This fear I’ve been trying to hide and ignore has gained much strength to speak out the reality, and expose itself, silently eroding and overpowering my veto. THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. And it is terrifying.

 ♫ Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I’ll always stay with you ♫

     Endings are hard but beginnings are even harder when there’s no sign of invitation from the starting line. It is hard to start blindly and pretend that everything is right. I’d rather cease from showing I care and be hurt than cause you the same pain in the future.

Let’s cut off all ties. And even though it sucks the very life out of me right now, I’m letting you go…

♪ Oh I could say that I’ll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I’d only hurt you
I know I’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye ♪

    I don’t really want to do this, because the mere thought of losing you and these feelings… I can’t. I just can’t. But there are things that do not revolve around our own desires, things that are better left surrendered than striven for, things left unspoken and broken…  And who would have thought that the fight I would love to carry on ‘til the end would be the fight I would need to surrender to define what courage and love is, and to show, as ironic and far-fetched as it may seem, that “I am fighting.”

♪ I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I’m only doing this for you
I don’t really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do

     I want you to make me love you less because I can’t do it on my own. Every time I tried to suppress the emotions, it cost me a little of my sanity. Every time I try to walk away, I always find my way back to the same place. ..

Tell me I was wrong all this time, that maybe, it’s just a delusion—something not real, that maybe it’s just me and my fantasy, ‘cause I can’t seem to understand what reluctance to believing the impossible is.

♪ Oh I could say that I’ll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I’d only hurt you
I know I’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye ♪

     I’ve been living in despair, might as well take the one last big blast of this stabbing and excruciating pain to end it, than to nibble away at this agony, bit by bit, to death.  I know, one day, I might look back and regret, but it is the right thing to do.

 ♫Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you

 ♫ Oh I don’t wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I’ll never be the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

I love you, goodbye…


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