Reader Story: She Looked at Him
Shared by inilluzion.
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She looked at the man sleeping beside her. 7 years yet he sometimes felt like a stranger. Sometimes she felt she failed to understand the father of her child.
She looked at him and wandered if she actually loved her. She can not feel him him anymore. Their daughter was the only the thing they both cared about and thought about in the long run. When she wanted to talk, there was always some more priority topic taking over, her in-laws, his work, her work and their daughter. When he showed some interest in her, she was too tired of wanting to be wanted.
They had a few troubles which were not solved, but they just skipped them. Not long enough did they realize that it did not work. She looked at this man and shed a few tears. She looked at her daughter and she felt strong. She was tired of picking the pieces everyday and put together a perfect picture of her family. She wanted to be loved again, to be held again as she forgot how it feels to be loved again. All she could feel were the cracks in her heart and her hope torn apart. A few flickering memories of love and hope were fading into dust. She wanted to leave but she looked at the most beautiful daughter in her life as she opened her eyes to call her “mamma”.
She tried to talk to him a few times and tried everything to rekindle her marriage. She looked at him but couldn’t read him. He was stone-faced. She was looking for hope in the darkness and looking for a light. She was looking for the vow he made when he married her. She could’t understand and she couldn’t let go.
She looked at the man sleeping beside her. 7 years yet he sometimes felt like a stranger.
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Unfortunately, it is something very usual and very painful.
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Once again, your genius comes through brilliantly. This one reminds me of that line from the Joni Mitchell song, something to the effect, “She walks away…
“But she don’t go……”
My date was a total success. As I told her, I’m a love junkie and will put.my heart on the line for love. Well love won the day. She decided to give her boyfriend achance. Mission accomplished! After having a wonderful romantic time with her, she decided to try and make it work with him. I told her all I wanted was to do whatever it took to make her happy and was glad she found hope. It wasn’t all me of coutlrse. Perhaps I was the cement that saved a love relationship.
By the way, Fickle, did you ever see my blog, “Dear Fickle”, my poem to you expressing my Platonic passionate love for you?
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Living for seven tears together and yet feel like a strangers……..A sensitive and emotional read .Pain of a wife and a mother expressed well.
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Sadly, that hits much too close to home. I tell myself it’s never too late. My wife loved me once, and she could again. If I have to rebuild my life, I would rather do it with her then without, and be able to keep my family together. But it feels like I’m the only one who wants to try.
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Reblogged this on THE UHM and commented:
Great writing.
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Thanks!
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No problem friend.
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Great story. We all hit that hill. I just gave my 25 year marriage a small reboot. It was a quiet talk at 2:30 in the morning. Too many assumptions and not enough throwing it out there as raw and unfiltered discussion. But it’s never that easy. My best friend asked what took so long. 25 years you look for a particular opening and moment. Sometimes it is only a 5 minute gap and then that door closes. Sometimes it seems easy to not make waves and silently hope it fixes itself. And of course that never happens.
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Huh! Its so like the same everywhere and with so many peoples. Its so sad to read or hear about such things. Like, your life partner is just a commodity that serves your purpose, fulfills your needs and then you are to yourself without caring to know how he/she feels, what they think. I am single, but i do know about many people especially females, who go through the same phase.
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Same here. This story is based on a friend of mine who is going through a hard time. Its sad how things can change. Thanks for reading the post.
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Pleasure is mine, for I love to read.
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This is a common experience. You will both have to work at rekindling the flame. Get a baby sitter and have a romantic night out, or rediscover some of your common interests. Here is a poem I wrote about a similar situation, however, mine had a sad ending. I hope yours is better.
http://wp.me/s4Q3aK-cold
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Thanks. This is based on my friend’s life who is going through a hard time. I tried to suggest a few ways to rekindle her relationship, but of course it’s not easy.
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Sad endings are good for those who read/view them because they inform life.
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I’ve been thinking about your story. If you like to read great literature, Herman Hesse’s book Rosshalde is about this situation as well. Also has a sad ending though, and I guess at the moment you are looking for hope.
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Thanks for suggesting the book. I will definitely keep in my list and share with my friend. The story is based on her life.
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Reblogged this on still hope 4 the best and commented:
Very well written.
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Thank you!
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